Dear Kevin,
You came into my life not in the most unexpected time, but then in the most unexpected ways, you were able to win my heart. You are my first boyfriend, and indeed, you're God's way of rewarding me because I didn't rush things over. You are God's way of telling me that I made the right decision of waiting for the right moment and trusting Him wholeheartedly.
You've been an understanding friend, a loving boyfriend and a good man. That's why instantly, you became the seventh member of our family. You loved not just me, but also the ones I love. You shared with me not just your stories and funny jokes but as well as your perception of life, love and God.
We had small fights and petty arguments, but all those were resolved almost immediately because most of the times you're taking the blame, even if we both know that it's not your fault. You say sorry even you don't have to; you give me gifts for no reason at all; you send me long messages of love making me feel that I have the longest hair in the world.
Everyday, for eighteen long months you made me smile, laugh, and fall in love. And I sincerely hope I was able to do the same.
June, on our fifteenth month together, came a small misunderstanding but then had a big impact on our relationship. I cried, I was hurt but then again, we resolved it with open minds and accepting hearts and we were able to move on.
Second week of September, exactly nine days before your birthday you've been invited to attend a yearly summit in London, something you've been wishing for. And right at that moment when you shared with me the news, I already have a plan in mind. That is, no matter how difficult it is because of the nature of my work, to fly secretly to London and surprise you. A surprise I wasn't able to push through three months ago.
However, for the same reason, with the same person and for the same set up it happened again, but this time, even more painful. You know how much I love making surprises but now, I don't know If I would ever make one again.
I love you. I still do, but I had questions you can't directly answer. You made things you, yourself can't justify. My first boyfriend who I thought was also my last, just broke my heart.
You told me that you're willing to wait until we can finally start again, and believe me, that's what I want.
However, I don't want to hold you back. I don't know how long it will take, I don't know how much time I need, and again, I have to patiently wait for the right time. That's why, I am breaking up with you.
You've already apologized a hundred times, but more than that, time is what I really need.
Thank you, Kevin.
Love, Annie.
0 comments:
Post a Comment