Bothered.

Yes. I am damn tired.

Mostly because of school things. 

News report every week. Reading sets every week. Quizzes every week. Recitations every week. 

No week has passed without me exhausted.

Well, that's how really a student should be.

But i am doing this, not because i just have to.

I am studying this hard, because i am looking forward for a favorable outcome.

Because this is what i want for myself.

But the sadder part is, i am not seeing myself into that "favorable outcome". 

I am depriving myself even from sleeping just to study my lessons, yet, i am not getting the results that i want. It's not that i'm failing. But this is really not the result i am expecting to have.

Exam results are fine. Just fine.

But what i want is not just fine.

Well i guess, i have to strive more. Study more. Listen more. Read more. Learn more.

I never thought things would be this hard. 

You might think i am overreacting. But this is really how i feel.

Maybe because, i am not prepared enough, i am not intelligent enough. 

But i am not taking that negatively. 

For that's the truth.

And i am very much willing to improve myself. 

Through these hardships i am facing.

And through my strict, demanding but intelligent Professors.

I will use this time i have with them. 

By learning all things they could share.

I believe i am being non-sense if not sentimental.

I just really have to express how i feel and help myself feel better.

By looking and accepting not-so-good things positively with full spirit and enthusiasm. 

#ICANDOTHIS.